@birdcat
@lemmy.mlthank you for your and everyones reply, really appreciate it! 🥰
i tried different meditating things over the last few days and really seem to struggle with the "focus on the breathing" aspect of it. if i focus too much (which is not a lot) i start to feel uncomfortable and eventually forget how to breathe, which leads to the sensation of not getting enough oxygen. even after stopping, it takes me like 10 minutes to not think about breathing anymore to be able to breathe normally again.
anyway, i got some of those baoding balls, which are super nice. i can better focus on the breathing somehow, as i get a bit distracted from it. but even with them, i cannot really sit quiet more than 5 minutes, because of all the thinking and impatience.
Thoughts will arise like random noise and we shouldn’t judge ourselves for it, but we don’t have to follow our thoughts. We don’t have to indulge in them and let them take us for a ride. This happens all the time and we don’t even realize it 99.99-whatever% of the time.
i get all kinds of random anxiety inducing thoughts throughout the day. they can circle or focus about hurtful things or seemingly (very mild, so not really; no trauma whatsoever, worst that can happen is a panic attack) existential threats, but are mostly about random stupid shit. just by being aware of those thoughts, as in oh look, thought A is coming, it will probably lead to emotions X and Y, should i ride along with it right now? i am able to stop ~80% of the shit that i could never stop before. kinda crazy!
also interesting is, that i can break actual hurtful/threatening thought spirals, but not random thoughts that have zero impact on my life. *like whats up with that elizondo guy, does the cia want me to believe aliens are real now? and do people really watch this hasan guy? *its weird how much those 2 questions alone will enter my mind again and again and again and again and refuse like crazy to leave, while i can somehow – with a simple 2-second choice – just not engage with personally deeply depressing or real-life actual frightening things.
crazy stuff. super glad, i finally got into it.
ps. what do you mean with
Also, meditation practice is powerful and can lead you to dark places if you aren’t careful. Some silicon valley types who meditate for “productivity” have found that out. Also, you must always pair meditation with an ethical practice.
for my ethical practice idk, i was really "anti everything spiritual" the last 15 or so years. But my best friend got into all that, and then when I listened to this episode of refleft, it set off the whole thought process (and the one linked in the post made me decide to really start it). but yea, new to all of it.
This comment from OP made me laugh super much. No matter the context context, i wish you all the courage needed and then some! ❤️
got a point there, the twint TOS are straight up criminal, if this new system kills twint im in support of it.
man if only some kind of "technology" existed to securely hand over big amounts of money, like maybe the cash could be "stored" somewhere, like in a "database" of some sorts, and we could then use some kind of "unique identifiers" and make like "transfers" in cases where the needed cash amount is so big that carrying it around makes us feel uncomfortable 🤔
lol wtf, so not only did he invade a bunch of peaceful countries to bully an innocent german politician into suicide... but also conducted fucking purges JUST SO HE DOESNT NEED TO WORK ANYMORE????
(seriously tho, great post, thanks, probably gonna print some of those 👌🤣)
dont bother with any of that. instead, tell them the genocide is real and really, really bad, and that they should read a FULL paper by adrian zenz. then you get a low chance that they do that. and if that happens... uh how to put it nicely... there must be serious brain damage involved if they continue believing in it.
wow, so futuristic! but which part of i put cash from my hand int yours is not instant enough?