Because, goddammit, a better world is possible! A lot of the time shit sucks and everything is expensive and I wanna just go to bed and never wake up.
But most of my problems are problems millions or even billions of other people struggle with, and those don't get solved by opting out of life.
What's more, those problems are man-made. They're the result of systems designed by mortal men just like me.
So, I stay alive. Because the only way to out-vote, out-number, overpower, and / or annihilate those bastards is to be alive.
a better world is possible!
No it isn't.
Because the only way to out-vote, out-number, overpower, and / or annihilate those bastards is to be alive.
One person railing against 7B isn't going to do shit.
Life and the world are a lost cause. In my 20s I thought I could do something about it. Now at 40 I realise I'm impotent against the world.
And what exactly did you do about it in your 20s?
Sip IPAs and complain? And then nothing changed? I'm shocked.
In my 20s I was politically and socially active. I'd founded two businesses before I was 30.
I'm speaking from bitter experience.
i saw a picture with a bird and "i live to spite god". this has been my prime motivator.
it's an Aldabra rail. an extinct bird which evolved itself back into existence.Honestly I don't know, I give up on life time ago, then this last year I start "living" again by having a daily activies and job. But I deal with this like someone dead inside, I don't feel any joy. I am not even looking for a goal. I see nothing in other people, I interact with then know that i get forget as soon the day end. I am just too scared to kill myself.
I had/have depression and what you described sounds a lot like it. Not saying it is, but I'd absolutely get an appointment.
The fact that you somehow got slightly out of it and started doing stuff, even if it's not that gratifying for you, is a step in the right direction. With medication or even just being seen by a professional I'm sure you could enjoy your life again!
I hope things get better soon.
In my country it's a process. You book it. My uncle did and left us on a Tuesday at 5pm exactly, surrounded by family.
It feels nice to bike and feel the wind in your hair and huddle into your jacket keeping you warm. I also actively take breaks from playing video games to sit and feel intense gratitude and happiness toward the game. And oranges are absolutely delicious, and singing loud makes me feel alive.
I also like finding flowers in springtime (and putting them into my journal) and seeing/hearing great big flocks of crows in the autumn. Those are seasonal though, not a daily pleasure that keeps me going no matter what.
It used to be various substances but now it's making sure my kid has all the happiness and love that I wish I had growing up and the smile on my wife's face when she sees how happy I've become
The crabs cycle - maybe I'll spontaneously evolve into a crab, like all things do. Anything else & I'll just continue to be a waste of space until I get a good enough excuse to not be.
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Debt to family members. If I pay them off, I'll have a reason to keep living. If i decide to run or kill myself, then I'll just be "a coward" and "selfish".
But I've had bad luck my whole life. I hope I'll be able to pay them off one day, but the idea of suicide has been crossing my mind daily. I've been unemployed since covid except for 1 job which lasted a month, and another job this December which may only last a month.
I am out of money. I just graduated university with a Bachelors Degree, and unlike most of my colleagues, I've been unable to get a job in the industry.
My school loans are coming to collect in January. My whole family is poor. I'm the realistic example of a poor person graduating with a degree. I'm stuck poor, and I will probably die poor.
Getting your first job after getting your degree is arguably the hardest time in your career. Just remember that it only takes one. Keep applying. Get help with your resume. Practicing interviewing and always have an appropriate outfit ready to go. You can do it.
I’m not saying it’s easy nor that you should be overly selective. Your struggles are valid and job seeking blows. But just keep trying. If others have been able to get a job in the industry, that’s a good sign. I know it can be hard to see and compre yourself against, but it does not mean you won’t follow.
Earning a degree is a major accomplishment and one you should be proud of. Loans can seem overbearing and stressful, but if they’re federal student loans, you can get on an income-based repayment plan to alleviate a lot of pressure. If you’re not generating income, the payment is usually $0. Very normal for new graduates and some people stay on them for a much longer time. Do not neglect these payments. Make sure to apply for this well before your first payment’s due date (probably now if your due date is January).
Just keep on trucking on. One day at a time. Your family cares enough to help you out and you’re in a tough spot. Keep trying to improve and it’s likely to happen. Lean on all of your contacts, friends, and personal drive.
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I have applied for the income based payments, but I also have 2 other loans that were deemed "personal loans" which makes up the other half of all my loans.
I'm at over $100,000 USD in debt. If I don't pay it, they're going to come after my family members who cosigned, and they can't afford to pay it either, so we're all fucked if I don't make payments.
BTW I was late on 1 payment and they slapped me with an additional $70 on my regular payment of $25. This is why I've thought about ending it. It won't be my problem anymore and I won't have to consider the consequences.
I'll just be gone forever. But I also don't want to do that to my family if I can help it.
Wife, kids, the next holiday, the next treat, dinner, the thought of telling my boss to fuck off when I find a new job.
Is it me or is lemmy more depressing than reddit was? This is a BLEAK thread....
We live in an age where negative sarcasm is considered fashion.
Frankly, I’m not far off your post: Wife, job… but I met my wife in my mid-50s, expecting to be Bachelor Uncle forever. No kids, so no one to take care of us in extreme age but I love and appreciate my wife beyond words, and now I’m 4 years from retiring to her homeland. Admittedly, it’ll be Bali, but dammit - another language to learn, moving to another part of the world, new everything to get through as an immigrant - so challenges… but also new adventures.
You got to keep moving, keep trying to be positive. On on the end-run of life, and if you’re not trying to make our short time here positive, then you’re going to regret everything along the way, so hang in there!
The things that come to my mind when thinking about answering this question are naturally pleasant things, so it's interesting that other people's answers gravitate toward cynicism.
"What keeps you going?" Flowers in the springtime, the promise of Mexican food (as someone else in this thread said), the taste of oranges.
You have to be already pretty depressed (and not trying to improve your outlook on life via positive psychology) for your immediate answers to be things like idk i just haven't killed myself yet i guess.