This is basically my plan when I'm not super anxious spiralling lol
I'm in therapy rn but it's gonna take a while cos i just got out of an abuse situation
i logically know this, because i know they don't really care and you can just lie, but anxiety is crazy lmao
ig im worried about how that'd look on linkedin, then
not sure how easy it is to list fake businesses and such there
i guess i could ask for people to help me lie, but im anxious that'd negatively impact them somehow. like idk the person im trying to employ at contacts the company and tells them the person was lying for me. idk how founded that fear is but anxiety's crazy.
i will never post
but hello new friend, i just increased my anxiety meds so im getting used to that
PPB is a funny image that people with bad takes online really do not like, so it is posted to piss people who are trying to argue in bad faith off rather than engaging with them
I have mixed thoughts on therapy, I started it a few months ago (my health care provider offered me free therapy, yippee) and the most helpful things my therapist has done for me is recommend me books that go in depth into a subject.
There are some things I could never tell my therapist bc I know they'd try to "fix" me (namely the fact I'm plural), and dealing with that would probably do a lot of harm. I can't tell them about any self-harming thoughts because I'll be institutionalized. But it has been helpful to work through understanding my abusive relationship, how to deal with anxiety, how to navigate my relationship with my parents in a safe way that won't get me kicked out, etc.
Basically I don't know everything about the world or myself and having someone tell me what they know is useful, but the interactions also inherently feel somewhat adversarial because of the aforementioned reasons, which limits the effectiveness. I sure as fuck wouldn't pay money for it, lol.
Not really.
I started therapy a bit before I broke up with my abusive ex. I had always thought that I had a very good way of introspecting; when there were problems in the relationship I was able to reflect on my actions and improve myself. Turns out I was just being gaslit into thinking everything was my fault, and I needed a therapist who knew what tells of abuse and abuse victims were so it could be clear to me that I was acting like an abuse victim and my relationship was obviously and clearly abusive.
Your perspective on yourself and your actions is not infallible, everyone is prone to biases and blindspots.
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