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@hexbear.netHere's the chapo discord from before Hexbear opened, but I don't think there's much affiliation these days
It's okay. Thoughts don't harm anyone, even ones much worse than the ones you're having. It is also okay to be attracted to someone even if it's not necessarily reciprocated. I also think it's pretty normal to get bowled over by someone you just met, especially you're love-starved.
I really empathize with your desire to be a good straight guy. And it sucks how much baggage gets put on you because of the awful, sexist society that we live in. But you don't have to own it all either.