It may not feel like anything right now, but this is something you'll be able to feel good about yourself for. Even without knowing details, years down the line you'll have fond memories of her, and fond memories of how you were to her.
That may be true if I ever develop the capacity to love myself and give myself credit for anything.
I believe that you will. You're facing obstacles, not constraints. Your sense of what is right and good comes from somewhere- someplace internal.