Crayon and crown are the same word for me. Hahaha! Didn't realize that either. But it's a little bit different because you know how you can pick up on the subtleties of your own accent. CraA(y)nnh/Craawwn. Let's try kitty...Kiddhee/Kidhee - yeah same there. Didn't realize - makes me laugh my ass off. The differences are only obvious when I talk slower but in general sound exactly the same. I know me some crawdads, but I also know me some crabs and lobsters and what have you. RC Cola was my grandma's drink of choice. She left this fine Earth a hundred years ago, but it still smarts to this day. But hot damn, when I see it I think of it fondly. Mind you, I haven't seen it in a hundred years either and just about the last non-Coke soda I've seen was Shasta and that was working in a home . So majority was ruling even as I made my way cross-country.
Trust ADHD is an actual disability, it's just that it was seen not as such for a long time. It's what they call "an invisible disability" just like autism, if you're on a certain side of the spectrum. I feel like a Buddhist monk medicated, but there's still obviously stuff that is crunchy about my life. Unmedicated ADHD individuals can be a powder-keg just waiting to go off. I strongly believe a good quadrant of addicts are just unmedicated ADHD individuals. A good quadrant of unemployed individuals as well.
Pain every day, that's a familiar mo. I workout on the regular, but had to swap from hi to li workouts so I don't end up in crippled death pain. . Right before stuff got really bad, I worked on a farm. It's fun stuff, and I think a good fit for the right personality. I personally love the urban vibe, but it's because there's endless scores of novelty, which is what my brain demands. You can walk anywhere, and talk to new people every second of the day if you've got the gumption to. Drinking is a beast, and I've seen it take down too many with it's alluring numbing qualities. I don't know too much about UC other than they will keep cutting segments outta your guts and that a cucumber can act like cement in there. I've met a total of three people (you included by this point) with it and the other two had to eat like fucking baby birds and keep everything low-fiber. I can't imagine alcohol is that great as it's a super-antagonist of most bodily functions and I'm glad you're holding it down. I know it's not everyone's bag but I advocate for flatline sobriety when handling addictions but especially in this department. But humans gunna hu =P! I'm glad you're back on the wagon. Painkillers don't fix shit, you absolutely do fight pain with working out. It keeps you strong and lowers inflammation.
Hahahahaha! You know, I feel this. I'll say things differ a bit between the lines, but being beautiful on either side will give you a leg up in this world.
I'm laughing here cause it still sounds like ADHD my guy! Hahaha! But foreals, on a bad day I can't utilize my body for shit. My hands become Mickey-Mouse mitts and no keyboard or hoe is having my ass =P! So in that sense I hear you here but when my body flairs up no mind over matter is having me. I will say that I've been in front of a computer about 500xs more than I ever was and in that sense it makes me want to die! Not actually die, but it does feel like a death of being. And really I would advocate 10x10x10 that people get from behind a piece of technology for at least a small portion of their day. But we live in such a world, that it's almost impossible nowadays. You're living a rare one sir.
The other thing that's funny that people might not know about with farms, at least in my experience - is that there's always something to do and some sorta fire to put out. I will say that I am glad you've found your rhythm regardless. Hey, I only was hurt cause I understand how much it fucking sucks to be dealing with something that hurts you so badly you've got nothing but pain. It sucks to be desperate in pain with no real way out. Is all. I'm doing okay right now. They got me on some new treatment that's experimental and even though I'm a guinea pig I am doing alright. Better than I was for sure. Hahahaha! Thanks for the love! I straight had a shit day and posted on Chronic Pain here cause I think we can uplift one another in our understanding of the situation. You sound like a good'un either way =)! Keep whooping that 15 year old at his own game, and take it easy some time "old man!" Hahahahaha! Big love!