Up until college, I was a the top of a lot of competence hierarchies. In my little hometown I was one of the funniest, one of the best at paying attention in class, one of the best at taking tests, one of the best at helping others with their homework.
I wasn’t at the top of any of those hierarchies in college, and my fledgling social skills from
a rural town were absolutely nothing compared to the level of sophistication these upper middle class suburban kids were doing.
I felt lost and worthless.
But one of the things that helped me keep moving was to make a conscious decision: I was going to see people who were better than me at something as inspiration, not competition.
Fortunately, being autistic, I was able to consciously and deliberately set that as a rule for my mind, and after a little bit of practice I got very good at it.
Now, to this day, when I meet someone who’s better than me at something, I get excited. It feels like watching a cool movie. And instead of thinking about me compared to that person, I think of me compared to the overall landscape. That person who’s awesome at something is like a sharp peak in the landscape, and by interacting with them, even just by watching them, I climb up the side of that spike, and while I might still be beneath the tip of the spike, by being close to it I’m above the average landscape.
People with amazing social skills are inspirations, not competition. They’re a model for how good you can be at it, if you keep your mind open and pay attention.
There will also be people who are highly skilled, but mean and antisocial with how they use their skills. Those people, you need to respect them and you can still admire their skills, but it’s important to maintain your own sense of judgement so you can decide which of their tools to pick up, and which ones to leave alone.
Even interacting with an antisocial person, if you take it as an opportunity to learn, can be valuable.
So I guess that’s how I would summarize the advice overall:
- Mainly, cultivate respect and gratitude for the environment of social sophistication around you. See it as an environment rich with opportunities to learn
- Don’t blindly admire the skillful though. Pay attention to which of the skillful people are using it for good, and which ones for evil
- Pay more attention to the skillful good ones, and allow yourself to see them as inspiration
- Obviously, befriend them if you can.
Definitely don’t lose sight of that good-vs-evil dimension. When I was in college I was paying more attention to the cool-vs-uncool dimension, and it caused me a lot of stress
and horror in my life.
The twenties are a good time to start switching from Cool to Good as the main thing you’re seeking in friends and social opportunities. Obviously you need both. Cool people make the world go around, so don’t settle for being Good but Uncool. Just, when the two are in conflict, go for Good.