@SoylentSnake
@hexbear.netgod i wish i could be someone who truly loved being single like some people do (or pretend to). but nah this shit sucks. but also i'd rather do this til i die than settle for less than a love connection.
ugh i',m so fucking boring. always just posting about loneliness and romantic bullshit. wah wah wah. become less of a one note piece of shit soysnake
emotionally damaged men can't just pull a Don Draper when they're sick of their old life anymore because of woke. this is what they took from you.
just feel it out, don't overthink. feeling out number 2 while single doesn't close the door on 1, people aren't expecting exclusivity that early (if they even are monogamous). and who knows, you may find that in the process of Actually Seeing if there's Something to Build On you build a deeper bond with 2 than you ever would have imagined.
(you could also try to poly the situation but that wld be too much work for ya boy, personally)
::: spoiler crushposting Crushing loneliness, that is.........oh well just the push i need to focus on myself and be the best me i can be (gym therapy etc etc etc)!!! let's try to have a good Friday ya'll, keep on smashin life!!!!!! :::
yeah my sleep health can't be redeemed at this point. even when i do everything right my anxiety wakes me up in the middle of my sleep shift and keeps me there for hours, sometimes until it's time to wake up for work
got a date with a guitar player this week and a maybe date maybe just catching up with someone i used to know next week (matched with an old college friend on tinder who i haven't spoken to in years). i should be happy but man i really hate dating lol just skip me to the end of the process where i'm in love again
EDIT: it has some value as an exercise in flexibility and letting go of expectations/a need for certainty but is more a chore than not even so