Does anyone else feel a degree of imposter syndrome with work, like it's only matter of time until you can't work around your ADHD enough to avoid problems and everything falls apart?
I'm currently provisionally diagnosed with ADHD, pending further testing. I managed to get a degree and was working for a few years when someone recommended I get tested where I proceeded to finally pass this one test with flying colors...
My experience with work is that in the beginning, my attitude and enthusiasm to learn tends to give my bosses the impression that I have so much potential.
Then, cue the slow car crash that is me failing to meet that potential, then the cracks starting to show due to disorganisstion or task paralysis in my work, eventually putting me in a position where my competency is questioned and I'm falling behind on work because I'm struggling to meet (imo) great expectations that might seem realistic to neurotypical people, but is a struggle for me.
Then I jump ship to a new job, and the cycle restarts.
I thought I had a handle on my latest job. Stayed for just over a year. I thought this was it, I wasn't an imposter, I was finally fitting in. Then cracks, and everything fell apart and I'm now at risk of losing my job again. I tried my best, and I just feel disappointed in myself, like even I can't trust myself to do things right even at max effort.
This sucks.
I take Ritalin 10mg on a needs basis since I generally have functioned 'alright' into adulthood.
Just took one to get some work done today and it still amazes me how normal I feel about doing work once I'm medicated. Like there's no massive hurdle to even starting. No massive reluctance and task paralysis to fight.
Coming from a whole week where I've been procrastinating on whatever isn't urgent, suddenly it's so easy to just... do.
I also get incredibly chatty (hence the post, lol), but yeah. I can't imagine how life changing it must be for people who struggle even worse with executive dysfunction.
So, I had a really weird train of thought.
In the Ten Commandments, it says to honor your father and mother.
In too many societies, it means that (not all, but still too many) parents feel an entitlement that they can treat their children and grandchildren like crap and still be honoured and served because they gave them life and are their parents/elders.
So, this means parents don't necessarily respect their children, and the children who aren't respected would continue the cycle, respecting their kids less than they were respected, because they're now the parents.
And so on and so forth, which could possibly tie into how the rate of mental health issues are growing (generalising the increased awareness mental health has now).
I understand that this can be easily debunked, and there's more nuance to all of this. But for people who come from "traditional families", I'm curious to hear what you think.
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