Exactly, before it was possible to think of things getting better, but no matter how many times I said that it was going to get better I never believed myself. Now it is truly actually believable that it will be better
Hell yeah to getting more piercings!!
I GOT MY EARS PIECED
I've been telling myself that I was going to do so for like years at this point but it was always so far off thing in the future and I never made any concrete plans. Well this morning I thought to myself "you have to do it today or you will never do it" and I just decided on spot that fuck it today's the day. Overall it was such a fun experience, my roommate and I went and we just walked down the downtown afterwards
I've had such bad anxiety and agoraphobia my whole life and just the idea of doing something like this would have been too much like a couple months ago. My meds have really been helpful
I think I've been depressed my whole life. I'm not saying I've never had happy moments, but like after the moment is over the happiness fades and I just go back to being miserable, every day is filled with dread, I've never been able to really imagine the future. But like everything is different now, it's hard to even put into words the totality of it
Had a job interview yesterday, fucking finally. It was one of those online ones which kinda sucked, I would have just preferred to do it in person. Idk how I did, I hope I get it but I'm not holding my breath
Also got my wellbutrin dose upped, probably going to have another week-ish of mania but I hope it's worth it, I'm fucking tired of being depressed
Things are looking up
Every therapist I've ever had has been dogshit
When I told my last therapist about my anxiety she was like "oh why don't you try aroma therapy to calm you down?" MOTHERFUCKER I need assistance leaving my own apartment to go grocery shopping I get so anxious, aroma therapy isn't going to do jack shit
And yeah basically everyone I've ever had has been really disinterested. My last one even ended a session 15 mins early seemingly cause she got bored
My physiologist is okay cause she just gives me meds and we talk like once a month, she still misgenders me and shit so still trash but better than any therapist
Mental health services are a joke in the US
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