most my friends have been shitty throughout my life so its hard for me to trust new people enough to be friends. i had a good few friends id hangout with and i was dating one of them but we broke up a month ago, and i dont really talk to them anymore, except one but i feel shitty because its my ex's friend and i feel like im inadvertendly hurting my ex which i also dont want to do.
my closest friend decided to take a gap year coz uni is stressful
so im kinda down to nobody haha. its ok tho i climb and other folks climb with me so i get my social interaction there
i dont feel comfortable just talking to people randomly i feel like theyd think im weird for randomly reaching out even tho thats prolly not true. i cant be certain.
i have a lot of anxiety n stuff lol but my ex made me have panic attacks every other day. not because of her intentions just my anxiety making me crazy. we have no bad blood tho i dont think.
apologies for venting mr(or ms) random person