I think it more comes from how a lot of supposed mental disorders, are more of a conflict of that individual and the society they live in. If society was structured in a way for ADHD people to be able to contribute that is structured around how their brain works, there wouldn't be a disability in the first place. Not all, of course, but many. How we shouldn't be positing these people as 'broken' because their brains work slightly different, but because our society isn't structured in a way to allow them to contribute in a way that works best for them.
I have always felt like a highly sensitive person in general. I know there's a lot of pop-psych stuff around that term, but I've really always felt that way. Getting into a verbal altercation with someone, including family has always rattled me inside, makes me feel all fucked up. Same with seeing something highly sad, It's hard for me not to just be incredibly sad, such as weeping, versus being able to contain it. Same with anger, and so on.
Maybe 'it's okay to be afraid' is the answer. Maybe for me, it is that idea of “clinging” to life, and struggling with that. Maybe it is having this image of myself in my head, that when the time comes, I shouldn’t let the emotions overwhelm me, and I should be able to remain stoic and “exit the world with dignity” or something like that.
Indeed I have passed out, many times. It's always a terrible experience, or, incredibly uncomfortable probably. It feels like I'm losing my mind when I'm passing out to be completely honest. It feels almost psychedelic coming out of unconsciousness for me. Excluding anesthesia, more thinking about passing out while getting blood drawn or from heat or something.
I wish the idea of simply fainting from existence was comforting, but historically that phenomenon has always been uncomfortable as hell for me.
In terms of afterlife, I would say I'm agnostic. When i say I have appreciation for the Dharmic religions, I don't mean that I believe in the supernatural aspects of those religions, more that I appreciate the philosophical undertones present within them. Specifically stuff like Indra’s Net, or anything that stresses that “things aren’t really things, but things are the relationships between things”, if that makes sense. Just the stuff that stresses interconnection and nuance, i find that I can really appreciate and see a lot of crossover with systems science and Marxism. Also, Swami Vivekanda has written some very interesting texts on Socialism based on his time in the USSR, which I found pretty interesting.
I do agree religion isn’t the end all, be all, and i generally have disdain for religion, i do find that those philosophies have a lot to be appreciated, especially when compared to the purely black and white thinking of abrahamic religion.
Agreed. I do think the ideas present within Vedanta and Zen Buddhism (the only two that I've studied to any extent) do have some really cool ideas that have a lot of overlap with scientific socialism and Marxism. Specifically stuff like Indra's Net, or anything that stresses that "things aren't really things, but things are the relationships between things", if that makes sense. Just the stuff that stresses interconnection and nuance, i find that I can really appreciate and see a lot of crossover with systems science and Marxism. Also, Swami Vivekanda has written some very interesting texts on Socialism based on his time in the USSR, which I found pretty interesting.
I do agree religion isn't the end all, be all, and i generally have disdain for religion, i do find that those philosophies have a lot to be appreciated, especially when compared to the purely black and white thinking of abrahamic religion.
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