These things are definitely over hyped in the hypnos and captions, I find it fun, but I definitely feel like it's one thing that isn't always talked about a lot.
For one, it seems like you don't have any regrets or feel grossed out, so it's probably safe to say you are at least attracted to men.
There's a few questions I think you should ask yourself now:
Do you enjoy dressing up/does it excite you?
Do you enjoy being submissive to men? Even in just roleplay?
If the answer to both of those is yes, then you probably are, or at least some sort of femme person.
Maybe the fact that it was super unceremonious made it kind of a bust.
I know certain things for me are only enjoyable if I can tell the other person is loving it, or there was certain build up to a moment. Maybe you're the same way.
I do consider myself non-binary and do enjoy dressing up even beyond just feeling excited or aroused from it. I wasn’t dressed up for that experience, other than me wearing panties and having shaved.
However your reply has helped me put into perspective, I do enjoy being submissive even in roleplay to both men (in RP since this was my first ever experience with one) and women, who I’ve been with before and always enjoy them taking charge.
And no, I don’t feel grossed out nor do I regret sucking a cock, I just have fears of being exposed which I think are fairly normal in this situation with a complete stranger. I do think your last point is key here, there was no talk and other than when he grabbed me to bust his load, I couldn’t even tell if I was doing a good job.
I think your assessment is accurate here, as someone who has experienced the same thing. It might be beneficial to try meeting up with someone whom you feel a connection with and is willing to take the time to communicate effectively.
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