It's okay. I come from the same background, and worst part is I didn't go to an actual school. Now I can speak German relatively well, and I'm on my way to figuring out Mandarin. All it takes is discipline. There is no time like the present, and don't stall yourself mentally by speaking of regret. Want to learn Spanish? Slap open a dictionary, right now, start writing down words. Google resources on Spanish grammar, there's plenty out there. Libgen is your friend if you ever need to get a PDF copy of certain textbooks. Want to learn Chinese? Also plenty of resources. If you like gamified learning and don't feel like you can sit around to learn Mandarin, get Duolingo, do a few words a day. Yes, you probably won't get a good grasp on the language that way, but every bit counts! Learning a language isn't like going from 0% to 100%, often time it's a life long struggle, and by no means am I trying to discourage you with this, but the way you need to see it is: learn a few words a day, phrases, learn grammar, consume media, however much you can tolerate at a given time, and you will be equipped with much more knowledge than before, possibly in the future with enough to engage in basic conversation. And the best part is with languages in my experience, once you get to a conversational level, everything else will come easily, vocabulary will be something you pick up the more you engage, and people will certainly be impressed. Don't give up comrade, you've got this.
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